My Promise to You
Dear Beloved,
How I love you,
How I love your heart,
Your bigness,
Your power,
You intensity,
How I love the way in which you invite me to step into mine
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I promise to love you,
In all the ways I know how
With boundaries,
With agreements,
With ownership and clarity.
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I promise to no longer enable this pattern,
But to be with it,
And to love you in it fiercely
Even when that looks like walking away
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Saying no,
Bowing out.
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I choose to no longer tolerate the idea that anyone can make me small
Control me
Manipulate me
That anyone or anything
Can keep me from the light
Other than myself
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I love this part of you, and all the parts of you
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I commit to owning my anger,
Rage,
Resentment,
My superiority complex,
My savior complex
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I give up the idea that you yourself are unenlightened,
Sick,
Broken,
Fragmented,
Unintegrated,
That I am better than you
Because of my ground,
My stillness,
My sanity,
My emotional stability.
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I will not blame you for the days that I forget it
my sovereignty,
My divinity,
My conscious creator,
But instead
choose to bow to you,
To kiss your feet,
As my greatest teacher,
My divine playmate,
Who is here to show me,
All that is not yet integrated
All that is not yet light
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Thank you for the ways in which you bring me closest to the light,
The dark,
And back again
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I commit to no longer blaming you,
Or attempting to beat you at your own game
But instead to show you mine,
The path of fierce love,
Freedom,
Sovereignty,
Unraveling,
Unfolding,
Curiosity,
Devotion,
Surrender
Allowing
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I commit to giving you something to die into,
Each and every day,
For a thousand more lifetimes,
old friend.
